Sunday, April 22, 2007
Well, i just thought that since this had been such a turning point in my life that... you know, it deserves a post in my blog XD If i would sum it all up in a scenario... i guess it'll be like ur first try at english tea. A rather unwillingness to do it because of its colour and because you think the hot water will scald your tongue and initially, its bland when u try it... but as u sip it up slowly, and as u get to the climax, you really get the high of it all.
Okay... i dont really know where to start but i think i'll start with me, on friday, right after school... well GT wanted to pon his POP as well so he took a cab and left pretty early. yeah.... and then, i forgot how but me rotan and jh ended up having lunch together at the canteen as usual hahas.... then jh had to go for self-study and i followed rotan la... then cus want to like "pei" him awhile... went to take a detour to take 162 from jh's bus stop. I rmbr on the way i was like... "wa lao... got camp.... waste my saturday sia... sian cannot watch anime" yeah... that was basically my whole mindset of "before camp" lol... well i missed a 162 right when i reached the bus stop and waited a REALLY long time before the next 1 came... of course i was in time for my 3.40 265 track at amk central hahas.
So okay.... that was basically it... when i reached home i basically watched anime, charge up phone and ipod and last minute packings and such hohos... i still was reluctant to go for the camp but like... confirmation camp la... die die oso muz go T.T lol.
When the time finally came, dad fetched me to yck mrt and from there... my life changing journey begun.
The train ride was very weird... i mean, i still had that "okay lets just get this over and done with" mindset almost throughout... but when i was on the train itself... i dunno why but there was just this mind-blowing intuition that something was going to happen that i will NEVER expect... something really big.
It did. Really... i'll not go into all the minor details but i'll leave the funny stuff in hahas... its something i'll never ever expect yea?
When i reached lakeside ( a SUPER long train... taking from YCK all the way left and down into jurong interchange, then crossing over to take past chinese garden towards boonlay ( before boon lay actually ) lol... and there... lakeside. Okay la... i was exagerating a lil... not SUPER long hahas... just a pretty long ride. Took about... 45 min? around there.... reached at 7.40 at lakeside.. ( planned meeting time was .30 lol ) saw adrian, andrew and gerald at station control there... so yeah, we from there the 3 of us took adrian's car to the retreat centre.... pretty nice place =3....
Okay... i think i'll just leave out first night since its pretty boring >.<
So saturday... yeah, this was the impt day lols...
What struck me were 2 things really... a sharing session with sylvester and the praise and worship session at night.
I'll not divulge sylvester's story since it should be kept secret but the jists of it was that... even such a devestated, cruel life that seems so common and so.. cliche in our modern days... you know, even that unwillingness opens up itself when god is with you... really. I was really inspired by him and ... yeah, i find his cause great.
The praise and worship was simply... godlistic hahas.... Normally, i dont really open myself up much during p&w, maybe its because of my upbringing... where my parents basically just brings me to church, sunday class then i go back like i've just woken up... not really much of a special meaning. Maybe because of this p&w just seemed like a "singing" or "caroling" session to me... but when i saw alex so immersed in p&w during the first night... i was thinking to myself, "why don't i try?" so... yeah, i did. I just threw away all my thoughts then... it really seemed time was endless, totally forgotten of all my worries, all my work, all my duties, all my responsibilities, my life even. I was just simply a servant of god here to sing his praises. And, God is just God... I was thrilled... i mean, words simply popped out like water flowing down a waterfall and there was simply nothing you could do to stop it... i felt invincible. Then there was the pray-over and i guess i wanted a sign... u know for the past few years of my catholic faith... my faith was directly dependant on faith and stories of other people themselves... i wanted a story of my own... i wanted to be affirmed of his presence among us. And he did.
When alex, amelia and michelle prayed over me... the words "holy spirit come into me" just simple came into my mind... and i just kept repeating that in my head... over and over and over again... and i started to sway... i was afraid, thinking that maybe i would get slain and just fall over and black-out or something and i tried to hold it in.. i think its really a human reaction? lol... then i felt my hair beginning to rustle... thought they were putting their hands over me but they told me after they didnt and... really, something was REALLY there... i could feel, sense, touch it... i could not see it but it was just moving, embracing me some sort. And yeah, i felt a push but i tried to hold it in still, stumbling and after that, i just started to sway more vigourously and i felt my legs go soft and by the third strong push, i fell.
It was cold, that was most i could remember... a cold, shivering feeling full of fear, full of uncertainty... i dunno... it was scary i guess. I laid there, shivering madly, trying to get up but my whole body was just immovable... i could feel someone pulling my hands back in together, i could hear the songs being sung, i could feel everything around me but i could not open my eyes, i could not do anything. Then i just surrendered to it all and enjoyed the peace within the shivering itself... and ya la.... very cool and all.
So yeah, that was the changing part of it all. Lol... i dunno, still waiting for my calling but i guess by this experience, my faith really grew la hahas.... also grew ALOT closer to my friends there... they dont just seem to be "church mates" or "sunday sch classmates" but "accompaniment in my journey" Yeah... dont have much time so i'll end it here lols....
Okay... i dont really know where to start but i think i'll start with me, on friday, right after school... well GT wanted to pon his POP as well so he took a cab and left pretty early. yeah.... and then, i forgot how but me rotan and jh ended up having lunch together at the canteen as usual hahas.... then jh had to go for self-study and i followed rotan la... then cus want to like "pei" him awhile... went to take a detour to take 162 from jh's bus stop. I rmbr on the way i was like... "wa lao... got camp.... waste my saturday sia... sian cannot watch anime" yeah... that was basically my whole mindset of "before camp" lol... well i missed a 162 right when i reached the bus stop and waited a REALLY long time before the next 1 came... of course i was in time for my 3.40 265 track at amk central hahas.
So okay.... that was basically it... when i reached home i basically watched anime, charge up phone and ipod and last minute packings and such hohos... i still was reluctant to go for the camp but like... confirmation camp la... die die oso muz go T.T lol.
When the time finally came, dad fetched me to yck mrt and from there... my life changing journey begun.
The train ride was very weird... i mean, i still had that "okay lets just get this over and done with" mindset almost throughout... but when i was on the train itself... i dunno why but there was just this mind-blowing intuition that something was going to happen that i will NEVER expect... something really big.
It did. Really... i'll not go into all the minor details but i'll leave the funny stuff in hahas... its something i'll never ever expect yea?
When i reached lakeside ( a SUPER long train... taking from YCK all the way left and down into jurong interchange, then crossing over to take past chinese garden towards boonlay ( before boon lay actually ) lol... and there... lakeside. Okay la... i was exagerating a lil... not SUPER long hahas... just a pretty long ride. Took about... 45 min? around there.... reached at 7.40 at lakeside.. ( planned meeting time was .30 lol ) saw adrian, andrew and gerald at station control there... so yeah, we from there the 3 of us took adrian's car to the retreat centre.... pretty nice place =3....
Okay... i think i'll just leave out first night since its pretty boring >.<
So saturday... yeah, this was the impt day lols...
What struck me were 2 things really... a sharing session with sylvester and the praise and worship session at night.
I'll not divulge sylvester's story since it should be kept secret but the jists of it was that... even such a devestated, cruel life that seems so common and so.. cliche in our modern days... you know, even that unwillingness opens up itself when god is with you... really. I was really inspired by him and ... yeah, i find his cause great.
The praise and worship was simply... godlistic hahas.... Normally, i dont really open myself up much during p&w, maybe its because of my upbringing... where my parents basically just brings me to church, sunday class then i go back like i've just woken up... not really much of a special meaning. Maybe because of this p&w just seemed like a "singing" or "caroling" session to me... but when i saw alex so immersed in p&w during the first night... i was thinking to myself, "why don't i try?" so... yeah, i did. I just threw away all my thoughts then... it really seemed time was endless, totally forgotten of all my worries, all my work, all my duties, all my responsibilities, my life even. I was just simply a servant of god here to sing his praises. And, God is just God... I was thrilled... i mean, words simply popped out like water flowing down a waterfall and there was simply nothing you could do to stop it... i felt invincible. Then there was the pray-over and i guess i wanted a sign... u know for the past few years of my catholic faith... my faith was directly dependant on faith and stories of other people themselves... i wanted a story of my own... i wanted to be affirmed of his presence among us. And he did.
When alex, amelia and michelle prayed over me... the words "holy spirit come into me" just simple came into my mind... and i just kept repeating that in my head... over and over and over again... and i started to sway... i was afraid, thinking that maybe i would get slain and just fall over and black-out or something and i tried to hold it in.. i think its really a human reaction? lol... then i felt my hair beginning to rustle... thought they were putting their hands over me but they told me after they didnt and... really, something was REALLY there... i could feel, sense, touch it... i could not see it but it was just moving, embracing me some sort. And yeah, i felt a push but i tried to hold it in still, stumbling and after that, i just started to sway more vigourously and i felt my legs go soft and by the third strong push, i fell.
It was cold, that was most i could remember... a cold, shivering feeling full of fear, full of uncertainty... i dunno... it was scary i guess. I laid there, shivering madly, trying to get up but my whole body was just immovable... i could feel someone pulling my hands back in together, i could hear the songs being sung, i could feel everything around me but i could not open my eyes, i could not do anything. Then i just surrendered to it all and enjoyed the peace within the shivering itself... and ya la.... very cool and all.
So yeah, that was the changing part of it all. Lol... i dunno, still waiting for my calling but i guess by this experience, my faith really grew la hahas.... also grew ALOT closer to my friends there... they dont just seem to be "church mates" or "sunday sch classmates" but "accompaniment in my journey" Yeah... dont have much time so i'll end it here lols....
what we could have been, 8:13 PM.
Tuesday, April 3, 2007
Hahas... havnt posted in a LONG while >.>... think ima keep this short since i gota go for tuition soon O.O...
Well, i just recovered from my STD ( as jh said it was ) >.>... basically my *ahem* scrotum was swollen and itched + pained like hell... went home after 3rd period on monday O.O... lols... the school system needs to change man... WHY THE HELL DO I NEED A PARENT TO PICK ME UP when im not having a fever or anything.... sure, maybe its to prevent students from going somewhere else... but dont you have security guards at the gate? Or couldnt you just CALL the parents and tell them about the situation? WHY do you need parents
to COME down and pick the sick up... geez.
Well, i bought a new bag today :D... hope i dont get screwed >.> 33 dollars... not so bad, bought it
at AMK there hahas... at first went with su de yao to J8 see see for bags but nothing much interesting, only saw a pretty good one at OceanPacific but it was like 37 bucks... and kinda small, not really worth the cash. Lol... anyway, pretty glad i made the purchase anyway, its MUCH bigger then my old ( almost tearing ) one now. lols...
Well, i just recovered from my STD ( as jh said it was ) >.>... basically my *ahem* scrotum was swollen and itched + pained like hell... went home after 3rd period on monday O.O... lols... the school system needs to change man... WHY THE HELL DO I NEED A PARENT TO PICK ME UP when im not having a fever or anything.... sure, maybe its to prevent students from going somewhere else... but dont you have security guards at the gate? Or couldnt you just CALL the parents and tell them about the situation? WHY do you need parents
to COME down and pick the sick up... geez.
Well, i bought a new bag today :D... hope i dont get screwed >.> 33 dollars... not so bad, bought it
at AMK there hahas... at first went with su de yao to J8 see see for bags but nothing much interesting, only saw a pretty good one at OceanPacific but it was like 37 bucks... and kinda small, not really worth the cash. Lol... anyway, pretty glad i made the purchase anyway, its MUCH bigger then my old ( almost tearing ) one now. lols...
what we could have been, 6:33 PM.
